I know I have told you some of this before but I spent a good deal of last night awake and thinking about this and want to share this as more of my Christian testimony.
I told you that I am severely ill because of a virus I got from my second ex-wife that is literally killing me. I jokingly tell people that she killed me but I am waiting for her to die first.
It has caused the condition called Hypervolmic-Hyponatremia or high water blood level and low salt blood level which has caused all of my other problems, including severe chronic fatigue syndrome. I am pretty sure that I also told you that every doctor and all of the other medical people who have worked with me since I was diagnosed about a decade ago have stated that I should have died more than a decade ago.
Now, what are they telling me when they say that?
Those doctors are telling me that all of their other patients would have died more than a decade ago, if they had gotten as sick as I am, because those doctors don't know how to keep someone alive this long who is as sick as I am.
With all of their knowledge and experience in using modern science and medicine, they couldn't keep me alive this sick for this long. I know it wasn't my fault keeping me alive this sick for this long so only God could have kept me alive this sick for this long. Every breath I take for the rest of my life will be a miracle because, without God keeping me alive this sick for this long, I would not be around to take those breaths. EVERYTHING I have done and will do is a miracle of God because, without Him keeping me alive this sick for this long, I could not have done any of those things.
Me still being alive and kicking is further proof that God is real, He lives, He exists and He does intervene in our lives. As a matter of fact, I am so ill that I depend on Him for EVERYTHING in my life.
At my worst, I was so sick and weak that I would sleep 16 to 20 hours a day, fix one or two TV dinners for meals each day, and then spend the rest of my time sitting staring at 4 walls, unable to do anything else. I was so sick and weak that I had to rest by doing absolutely no physical activity for at least 3 days before I went to town to buy those TV dinners and then it would take me 3 to 4 days of just sitting, doing nothing, to recover so that I spent 3 days resting to go to the store, one day when I went to the store, and 3 days recovering from going to the store so my entire week was built around just going to the store to buy TV dinners for food.
It is called survival and you do what you have to do to survive.
I survived through all of this with just me and God because I didn't tell anyone how sick I was except the doctors and a few neighbors who occasionally helped me do something that needed done and I couldn't do it and I asked for their help less than a dozen times in more than a decade. None of my family, who were all hundreds of miles away, knew how sick I was because God and Carl take care of Carl.
Until recently, after slightly recovering and only as a Christian testimony, have I told you or anyone else.
You see, my attitude was that I WAS going to find out what was wrong with me, I WAS going to get well, and I WAS going to get back to doing things. I never surrendered to my illness. I was always determined to beat it and still am even though I now know it is not treatable or curable because I KNOW that, with God, NOTHING is impossible. When man cannot heal me, God can heal me.
Hey, He kept me alive when none of the doctors could, didn't He?
I am 68, I am dying from my illness but I am still fighting, with the help of God, to beat this and my health has actually been improving since I found out what is killing me almost a decade ago to where I can now do a few tiny things but very little. If nothing else, I can write these essays to help others.
But my attitude is that God and I are winning because, when I was at my sickest, I barely wrote any essays but have written almost 1,000 since then, which is one reason why I started counting the essays I have written, it is to celebrate my winning. You can see on my home page that by about 2007, a decade ago, I had written less than 300 essays since I started this site in 1999 and since then God and I have written more than 900 essays in the last decade and me writing everyone of those essays was a miracle. We are winning. Satan can't stop us because, with God, NOTHING is impossible.
Interestingly, a decade ago, the European death panels would have murdered me because, in their feeble, Satanic opinions, I was of no further use to mankind, but, since then, I have almost certainly taught more to more people and helped more people than any Satanic Marxist twit who will ever sit on any death panel. As long as God wants me to stay alive, I will fight to stay alive.
Dear lefties, I am not through yet and have only begun to fight. No matter how sick and weak I am, I am still God's little scrapper because, with God, NOTHING is impossible. Know this, lefties, that, if I have to, I will crawl out of my death bed to fight you for my nation and to protect my people.
Hey, I already did, didn't I?
I can do it again. I am still in the fight, baby, I am still in the fight and I didn't give you commies permission to destroy my nation. The others may not have enough guts to fight you, but I will, no matter how sick or weak I am.
God's Little Scrapper
PS Interestingly, I recently found out that a significant number of my site hits are from Germany.
Maybe they would like to buy a guillotine? Wollen Sie guillotine kaufen?
I could just here the Germans say, "Yah, iche volle guillotine kaufen. Iche habe sie guillotines verkaufen gehoren." (In honesty, I had to look up "selling" and the spelling for gehoren or heard. I used to be fluent in German but have forgotten so much because I never use it any more.)
Unfortunately, I am too sick to build a guillotine so you will have to buy it somewhere else. I pray for you Germans and other Europeans that God will save you from your evil leaders.
FYI, for those of you who don't know, that we know of, I am German, Nordic, French, English, Scottish, and Irish, you know, I am an American.
May God bless and keep you all so that you will live long and prosper.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.